end of the road ....

just now, xoxo sent me an sms.

Today is the 2 month anniversary we didn’t meet. You don’t want to meet me anymore?


It has been a while since I met xoxo. Xoxo has been sending smses to me asking me to go out . But lately, xoxo has stopped sending the messages. In the beginning xoxo used to send me a lot of messages, but I seldom reply, or reply very late and used to send messages every few hours, and then it slowed down to a few smses a day and now maybe once a week. I always tell xoxo I am busy.

My studies are getting busier.

I have stopped meeting xoxo. The truth is, I think I am scared. I am making way too many excuses. And this is turning xoxo away. I think xoxo is such a nice person. I wonder what xoxo sees in me.

I never told xoxo anything. xoxo thinks I am mysterious. Maybe xoxo already know. Xoxo is too experienced and matured for anything to escape xoxo eyes. I never told xoxo where I came from. I tell xoxo I am a just simple boy. xoxo is really something special. I don’t believe there’s such person in this world.

Sometimes, I just want to send a message telling that I miss xoxo. I would type it out, but always stopped short of sending it. I hold back on my emotions. I swore not to let nobody into my heart again. I fixed it so they wouldn’t stand a chance. I feel so happy being single. Lonely sometimes, but happy because no one is hurting me.

I will just concentrate on my studies now. It is meaningless to pursue love.

Maybe this is the end of the road for me and xoxo. I would like to keep xoxo as a sweet memory.

Love means exposing yourself to the pain of being hurt, deeply hurt by someone you love.
ewan-xoxo